We have everything at the tips of our fingers. All we have to do is pull out our phone or type it in to our search browser on the computer. We can order whatever we want, and typically have it within a week or less. We can research anything, find anything, have anything nearly immediately. This generation is pretty spoiled! And I’m not complaining about it. But I think it has led to some traits in my own character that I don’t like.
Lately, I’ve felt God pressing on my heart that something new is coming on the horizon of my life. But, the answers aren’t at the click of a mouse, knowing exactly what I’m supposed to do, or get, like it could by ordering from Amazon. Visions and directions from God don’t just pop up on the screen because I searched for them. It has to be worked for.
I’ve found, lately, that I am sitting in moments of frustration, discouragement, feeling stalled out, not knowing which direction I’m supposed to go. The world has pressed pause on a lot of things in life right now, but God never presses pause on the direction He has for our lives. Yet, there’s been moments I’ve felt unsure. I stand at the crux of two lanes, each going forward. But one, down the road might veer off in a direction that isn’t His plan, and one leads straight to where He wants me. But I can’t see each end, and I can’t read His mind.
While the world has been on pause during COVID-19, I’ve felt over and over the “Be still” Voice, whispering to me to soak up each moment because change is coming. Each season He has for me is never wasted. It always has purpose and sometimes I catch on and sometimes I don’t. But I’m learning. I’m learning to lean in and hear His voice and press into His heartbeat because I know one day, I’ll learn from each test.
This might be a bit of a rambling post, but my heart has been searching and one of the most beautiful ways I’ve found to process is to write. Writing makes me feel like my rabbit-trail thoughts can find some form and order.
Maybe you’re like me, and you’re finding yourself wondering what God has. Maybe you’re feeling the pressing and the moving, but yet you still feel called to be still for a minute. All I can do is tell you to keep praying, keep pressing into the heart of God and He will show the pathway that holds His peace.